From Melanie to Joann: today was an act of love, my dear feeling caught in my own dark well of sorrow, angry, processing I carried myself to this little zoom

I am terrified of you, J Terrified that in your company I will be so fucking bored Fall asleep during your stories Have no delight, no joy, no play I

I wrote 10000 words of hatred, broke everything I love, including practice, my family, you, every person, every thing broke them with hate, broke them so I never wanted to see them again to see myself again

Hands in dirt like a newborn taking its first breaths in this is air this is sun this is water Squishing my palms into the earth, a worm wriggles back

I am scared to lose the sweet Harmony of father and daughter hands in the soil The damp earth and dark clay Saying all that needs saying I’m sorry

The almond trees on the slopes in Palestine are flowering pink after a long winter rest I saw them for one fleeting afternoon, basking in the embrace of a dear

In my house, there is space for people of all religions to reside to make art to honor their gods No one excluded, all offered water to drink and a

I see my mom in butterflies and my dad in dragons My mom flutters by with energy and love beckoning me forth, delighting my heart when I'm down